hectic week i had! love November all in a sudden just because lots of birthday parties we had and people came home for parties! :D 

younger brother was back on his off day and we had a small birthday celebration for him! found that he is so mature all in a sudden cause i went dating whole day with him. hrmmmm. i had a short nap on that day knowing that he would bug me to go around the town with him. yea, my brother. forever manja. :) forever lovely. 

taken picture with him. papa was the photographer. 

things happened. people may think that i poked fire but sometimes you've to think properly when you talk. i know you're smart enough in telling people stuffs. i know i'm not smart and i may not sense the right thing but your purpose was there. you've to admit that cause you said that but deny all the way just because you didn't say the words. that's what i thought. just like how you thought of us. i like to be straight forward so that people will not misunderstand each other. i was upset because i care but i think i care too much and so i deserved to be upset.

i actually prioritized the gathering of mine with cousins. i can sleep lesser for gathering. i don't complain because i have to work at different time with people just because i chose it. doesn't mean that my job is less important just because i'm a fishmonger. i think we have to manage our time for our plan but asking people to tolerate with us. nobody can tolerate forever.

i may be wrong but everyone thinks he is right. different perception, different opinion. 

i'm ready for lecture. :) 

lalala~ had information about the trip! i'm getting nearer to Jeju! Teddy's museum! OMG! my bestie knows how much do i love teddy or i would not get a teddy on my 18th birthday. special teddy from special person, how cool is that! :D 

kay, bed time. not too wise to keep on staying up late or i'll regret. :)

night, people. 

heyo people! i'm here again after complaining about the neighbour of mine. hehehehehe. had a busy week and enjoyed like there is no tomorrow. 

cousins were back to the town and we went around for bowling, durian, egg tarts and cookies baking. yes, i was really happy and learnt something new about making egg tarts even though i didn't help in making the dough. :P 

only one picture taken with my ah ma. why? because i was the photographer even though i didn't take nice picture. lack of skills but still, good enough for memories, i think. i love being myself. i'm stubborn i know. i'm not good enough, i know but i'm happy with it. :) hell yea, lots of effort i need to improve myself, like cooking, baking and pictures taking. :D 

you knew what, i burnt one of the trays of cookies i baked and it was just a waste with the nice oven provided! :D i'm ready for new lessons just because i find myself smiling whenever i bake and cook and i don't feel tired no matter how long do i stay in the kitchen. :) that's strange. i  only find myself not being tired when i stick with my laptop last time and i've got new hobby! how cool is that!! yea, yea. too talkative, right? because my sister is not back at home and i can tell nobody else! :D i know she is reading this and i miss her badly. guess she is missing me too with all the notifications showed in FB. :D

now, i know you love me too. you've to tell me you love me or i'll not know. show it to me like how ah boy did else i might lose myself half way, sometimes. :) i'm grateful that my siblings love me. i'm happy that my parents care of me. i'm really happy even though we're not rich. someone told me that we lived in our own world because we drive Japanese car which only people who work with low income buy but rich people! no, we're not rich but we're happy with our live. that's enough for me.

my dad asked me not to blame people who disappoint me but myself just because i expected too much. i find it true..

uh....... something is not right. else why did i type so much? :D 

taken pictures.  

my ah ma and I. 

made kimchi for the friend of mine who met a very big problem which i can do nothing to help. oh well, i know she is not going to read this but still, my moral support is there for you. tell me if you need to release your stress and i will give you no matter how many bottles of kimchi you need! yea, this friend of mine loves kimchi!

talking about Kimchi. my kimchi is saltier then the kimchi i used to make. smells alike but saltier, my mom said. added garlic chives! :) made it all by myself. :) didn't ask for help from my mom at all. proud, really. :D 

trimmed baby's fur again this week. heheheheh. trimmed the left hand of him but right hand. hahahahahhaa. made it in purpose to see if anyone finds it out! :D 

my baby! forever so active. forever so cute. cutest puppy in my heart! 

lalala~ its time to walk baby boy. he needs longer walk cause he gained weight! fatty boy needs to slim down a bit so that he can stay handsome! :D

so, advanced happy birthday, baby! yea, another baby Vios!

hehehehehe. :D

leaving. :D evening walk with my son! see ya. bye# :D

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今天心情不好，爸爸说因为我在专牛角尖。

因为专牛角尖所以情绪被影响了。

其实就很小件的事情，说出来的话，你们不可以取笑我哦！呵呵

今天，我遛狗去了。因为我时常都由我的仔仔“自由发挥”想在哪儿上厕所，就在哪儿上厕所，然后我再重新清洗，绝对不能像原本那样清洁可是并不会把粪便留在原地，可是今天我遇到对手了。

在邻居家前面的马路，它很大胆的大解了，而就那么刚好的主人家回来了。我很不好意思的跟她说我会清理的，可是她说，" If you don't mind, it is really dirty and unhealthy! " 然后就气冲冲的走进家里了。

我，不平衡！

我说啦，我会清理的。我常遛狗可是我绝对不会把粪便留在路边啊。

其实纯粹想要发泄！说他冤枉我吗？她又不认识我，当然会生气。说她觉得他很厉害的，用那看不起我的眼神看我吗？那是他家的事，他喜欢怎样就怎样!

过后，我想过了！其实是我在气我自己修养不够好。因为他说了一句话，我气了一整天！情绪被影响了，因为一个会跟不懂事的狗狗计较的人而影响！

我也太笨了一点。

呵呵

我希望，我可以从这里学到不在那么介意，那些无关紧要的事情！因为那只是在浪费时间。

突然之间，我好想念你哦，那个听我诉苦的人！

its been quite a while since my last visit? not too long this time, i think. :)

been working really hard for my baby because its birthday falls on 26th of this month and i'm going to send it to workshop for a proper service. hehehehe. i've got no idea how many times did i get into accident hitting people's car with its bumper. Ergh, it needs proper polish too i think? hehehehe.

i felt sorry for making him imperfect for so many years. yea, its his 4th birthday. do i need to get him a birthday cake? :P

life runs smooth. know more about my work. learn other minor parts which i never knew when i was younger. find myself too straight forward when i talk.

lalala~ talking about work. there was one day that i thought i needn't work and i got up at 4 in the morning. saw bestie online and chit chatted around. :) forgot what we talked about but he promised that he will hang out with me when he is back in hometown until he gets bored seeing me. how cool is that!! hehehehe. yea, i love this friend of mine. guess he loves me too? :)

oh too far away from the topic. hahahaha. something funny actually happened. got up at night and felt like eating meat and found nothing i can eat in the fridge other than the processed meat and so i defrosted the pork i bought from the market at the other day and started to marinate it. after all then uncle called and i left for work at 6.

braised pork. taste good unless it was too salty. hehehehe. my dad said that it taste even saltier than the salted fish. hahahahaha. nevermind, i always believe that practices make perfect. heh if there is a chance for me to cook it again then i'll take picture and post it here. :)

i really wonder why did i like you, listening to you more than my parents. i didn't know why and i don't feel like knowing already. i finally realized that i actually don't like you. how funny is that since i spent 6 years kept on telling myself i like you! released, finally. now i know i can reject you too! :)

i guess i'll be better really soon because talking to you or not is no longer important for me. :) i feel like slapping myself for my sister! :)

yea, i'm here to complain. because i know people who care me will read but don't worry. i eat and poo like normal. heheheh..

kay lar. smoothie time. bed time. :D

been busy working but playing with the fatty of mine and so i was once planning to walk him after getting up from my nap but then i found myself drinking too many cups of coffee until i stayed awake for the whole evening even though i kept on yawning for a couple hours. nothing helps even though i tried my sleep pillow and everything. 

i was regret after all and so i changed my plan! i came down and had my early dinner, walked him and bathed. :) getting more and more tired and so i'll be sleeping before 9. how cool is that! :D

was working without my uncle in the past few days. learnt lots of new stuffs. people expected me to know more and i know nothing. yes, i'm learning to be better than them. i'm learning to work with or without them. i'm working really hard to be better than them and my dad will be proud of me, one day! i know i can't do everything but then i believe that i can make it one day! :) it takes time. being better than them is part of my goal now. i'm going to hit it before i step on the land of Korea Republic. biggest goal ever! :D 

thank you for telling me i know nothing for working so long. =]

hrmmmm. i'm almost there. :D may i  sleep tight! :D 

when i was about to go to pick his poo. hahahaha. weirdo doesn't like to stay outside without me. :))

i'm so grateful to have my son all these while who jumps around whenever he sees my car

i'm so grateful to hug him whenever i'm emo

i'm so grateful to have him in my life! :) 

i love my boy very much

yea la, confessing. :D 

night, people! :D 

lalala~ i'm here again, not to stop myself from going bed but waiting for my customer to answer my calls!! ARGH. why off phone at this important moment. HRMM. yea, i'm starting to complain. hehehehe. my dad hates this. :P~

okay, life is fun. runs smooth when the queen was not around because i made noises in the kitchen just that i think i was too tension in my work and i got up at 6 in the evening today and i thought i missed going to work. then i  told my dad that i missed working and he said it was evening. i finally relax a bit and went back to sleep for a few minutes more. hehehehehe.

made siew mais for my papa, shui khows for myself. :) boiled soup with sengkuang and pork ribs and cooked the shui khows with the soup. :)

mommy told me to eat less fatty pig and chicken but then i told her we have different ways to release stress. she loves shopping and i love eating. we look stuffs in different ways and we like different thing. i dont eat poultry everyday so why can't she tolerate with me? hrmmm. after all then i know its for my own good. :)

talking about work. people ask if i am regret. nobody will regret for his responsibility. i'm taught to be a responsible girl. i'm an adult, no longer a kid. i chose my future,  i've to finish it up even if i have to crawl all over my journey because its my choice and i cannot give up. yes i'm stubborn.

HRMM. finished complaining.

its time. bed time.

night people. :D

病了

今天，病了，怎么说？真的病了吗？不怎么懂，感觉好像发烧啦。浑身热热的，提早觉得累了。刚刚看了时钟才发现，原来还早，我不知不觉中觉得很累。怎么形容？笔墨难以形容。呵呵。

今天我要破例啦，就趁病了，来这里开开玩笑，还要是用母语的。呵呵。

今天干嘛了呢？就给宝贝儿子洗澡，剪头发的。之后就堕落了，一整天。不懂为什么，就是躺在沙发上休息，也觉得特别的累。

想念我弟弟妹妹了，没机会撒娇。昨天弟弟问我怎么不反省自己，怎么不出去拍拖，认识多点人。你知道吗，有个人跟我说过一些话，感觉上是在开玩笑的，可是深深的伤了我的心。他说因为我没文凭，所以单身。我压根儿不懂那到底有什么关系。说我没自信吗？如果可以以数量词来计算我的自信心，我多得是，只是在不一样部分的。在我脑海里，家，很重要。守护爸爸妈妈，很重要。有时候，很累，可是如果我的那个他因为我没念书而嫌弃我，我希望我能够很清楚的告诉他，我不是他在寻找的那一位幸运儿。我，就是我啊，从你开始认识我的那一天，我就是那个我。

可能你们不赞同，可是继承父业比什么都好要重要。不赞同的话，我希望你们别嫌弃我，因为啊，我们只是观点不同，我只是有点坚持了。

读书？我去过。我放弃了。笨吗？还好吧，我没有考不及格，后悔吗？不后悔，因为他们让我学到太多太多了，也是因为他们，我妹妹失去了她以前的大姐。埋怨吗？我没有权利，因为那时成长的过程，我只是太自以为是了。


我想许愿，可以吗？

我希望，我睡醒，就会康复。我得做工，我要做工。我，病不起。这几天很重要。微不足道的愿望，会实现吧？ :)

我，超级不开心的，走啦。我的母语好像怪怪的。呵呵呵 希望再看的你们没在嫌弃哦。

保重。

晚安