been working day and night and get really tired in these days. :) had very serious period pain until i promised myself i'll swallow whatever my mom cook for my health and drink less cold drinks. its been a while since i had that kind of pain until i "slept" on the sofa with the hot pillow on my body. probably because i was too tired or that really hurt and i didn't know. :)
my mom promised to boil herbal soup for me and i promised her that i'll drink many bowls but a bowl a month. hehehehe. :D
talking about my life. am i happy? can i feel happiness? hehehehe.
yea, i'm going to type a long essay here just to stop myself from going bed at this moment. yea, tired and i think i can sleep if i can stay awake for another 15 minutes, perfect timing it will be! :)
watched korean series last night and cycled 50 minutes plus just because that series was too nice and i forgot about my timing about cycling. well, not a big deal because its better to cycle long than skip cycling. i don't remember when was the last time did i step on my gym bike, to be honest. very big tummy, very lousy stamina i've now.
dad asked me to eat less chicken and go for healthy food. i told him i'm too young for healthy food and if i've to eat healthy food to live longer, i rather die young. LOL. well, i think God heard me. for examples, i said i hoped to be in the first batch for national service and i got it, i was thinking about the reply of a friend of mine and i saw it in my phone, my ear was itchy and someone i was missing so much called. don't tell me they were all accident, i don't believe in that. i know life is short. i earn 1 ringgit and i spend 2 ringgit. hahahahaha. just because i believe that i'll die young. i even told my mom if i die, please pass my car to my sister and all my money to my brother. hehehehehe.
my sister is going to throw pillow on my face when she reads this but i don't care cause she is not at home. :P~
hrmmmmmm.
okay, talking about happiness. i'm happy, i think. with all the family members i've, very kind parents and grandmothers who love me, even though i might not be the one they love the most. very cute sister who loves to bully me all the time, brother who never tell me my cooking is good but he shows me in action that he supports me, brother who lives very far apart with us getting me a smart phone even though i find no way to unlock it. friends who are with me all the time, a car which is not the most expensive but just fit me best, work with flexible time, a son who jumps around whenever he sees my car.
yes, i love everyone of them, from the bottom of my heart. i love those who hurt me because of them i've grown up. i love people who support me even though i cook lousy food. i love people who tell me i'm never right. i love people who used to make me cry so that i can cry less nowadays.
i'm really lucky to have them in my life. nobody is perfect and i'm a stubborn lady. yea, i'm trying. trying my best to be even happier, just because i know i can be even more happy. i'm trying to say no to what i don't like. i'm trying to reject. i'm trying to be myself. i'm not rebel. i'm too old to rebel though.
i hope that you can help me. i don't mean to hurt you. i just feel like looking for myself and be really happy with my life. you'll support me, right? i know you will. i promise i'll not hurt myself. :)
yea, emo night. hehehehehe.
going off, night people. :))