heyaaaaa people!

today is not a good day for me. cried for small issue and find myself very funny! LOL.

told my dad being single isn't a bad idea but he banned my thought. he said a lady's life is incomplete if she is not married with kids. he made me feel that i'm lonely all in a sudden. i miss my sister. if she is here then i can hug her and cry but no one was with me so i cried in the office. LOL.

then again i found out that i'm not good enough in my job and so i am going to improve myself again.

i'm not happy.

i went shopping for ingredients of smoothies and i forgot to bring my wallet. thank Buddha i took twenty bucks plus in my pocket before i left home and so i didn't really buy any other things and i had to check the price before i take anything from the rack of Tesco or i would not have enough money for them. LOL. first time ever, because i never go shopping without bringing money. i find it awkward looking at stuffs i wanna buy and i can't pay for them. hehehe.

today is not a good day.

so, i'm going to drink milk and sleep like there is no tomorrow.

hopefully the sun shines tomorrow. hopefully tomorrow is a good day.

by the way, happy bak zhang festival people!

good day, xo#

slept for more than i can today because i am having monthly sickness for woman and still i'm having it after resting for a day without drinking coffee and ice. must be the consequences of drinking too many packets of iced coffee this month and i'm regret on it.

its really killing me because it is painful still after taken pain killers. worst thing is i had it when i was working in the wet market this morning. less efficient than i used to be.

feeling tired still after sleeping on my bed for many many hours. not sure how many cause i didn't count. lol.

there was once a friend of mine told me that my portfolio is sleeping. not to deny yes, i sleep more than you all who work in the office with formal wear because we work at different hour. i work when you are sleeping and i sleep when you are working. its just the same issue, just like when you're having dinner with partners i'm getting ready to sleep and when you're about to go to bed then i have to wake up for my job again. its just like a circle just that i keep on doing the same stuffs everyday and so i'm not learning as much as you can. i'm a fishmonger even though that is not my dream but helping my dad to continue his business is.

that is why i kept on telling myself to love my job, to be happy, to be less emotional in that way.

that is why i don't like people telling me staying in the market is useless for my future. i'm stubborn i know.

worst plan ever is i don't mind to drive a local car for the rest of my life. i don't mind to be single for the rest of my life. i don't mind to die young.

what else more i can lose?

yes, emotional night.

goodnight, xo#

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It's the second day of my holiday and I'm here in Sunway still. :) Went to college yesterday and wanted to try the best fried rice I used to eat once a day and five times a week and the shop is closed. Disappointed, really. Things changed and memories are kept deep in my heart. That is all I can say.

Met Raymond and we went to Mid Valley Megamall. I thank Buddha cause Raymond was with me all day long even though he was sick. This friend of mine is really cool and I wish that sometimes later I'll be able to meet someone like him. Guess what he had done? I told him that my sis doesn't eat tofu and he said he'll eat everything she doesn't eat for her. So nice, so cool. Pity him that he felt even more worse after our meals yesterday.

The other friend of mine came to see me too yesterday and we had yumcha session. It was pretty cool too and yea, right, life is not that happy after all. He is someone who came to tell me how cruel is the reality. He said that asking me to go for studies is just a hope and he is all the way here til middle o the night for my " bright future " .

Too much to think. Too enjoy in this short trip. Love here so much til I don't feel like going home yet. Too bad, holiday ends up really soon.

I'll miss you very much, Raymond. I'll think of what you have pointed out, Jason. Never worry about me cause I'm old enough in taking good care of myself.

Got to go. Good morning, people. Good morning, Sunway. Xoxo#