._.

was really emo and lay at the porch with Cooper. my dad asked me why didn't i come in but staying outside for such a long time. * i told him that i was chatting with my son * :P glad Cooper was there and i drop at least 300 ml of tears today. lol. will have swollen eyes tomorrow and i forgot that i shouldn't cry since tomorrow is a really big day! :(

talking about today. i hope everything happened is not related with me but i think it is somehow related. 

you were once so close with us but why? whatever you had done tore my heart into pieces. 

thank you for showing this face to cheer me up. i love you, my boy. :) please forgive me for punishing you sometimes cause you shouldn't have eaten stones and that is not good for your health.

got to sleep. :)

goodnight, people. xoxo#

Mango Pomelo, 杨枝甘露

thought of making mango pomelo because i got to see lots of mangoes around when i went to bazaar Ramadhan and Tesco but then when i wanted to make it, i saw noting even though i went for mangoes hunting in the market! that pissed me off and so i drove all the way to Tesco at 8 in the morning after getting the fresh coconut milk in the market. 

thank Buddha i got all the sweet Chokanan mangoes from Tesco. thank Buddha the recipe was really good and everyone likes it. 

taken pictures! 

i'm going to make it again when i can get cheap mangoes. :) thats what came into my mind after tasting it. thank you, 米桶！

Ching was back for the weekend and everything was good until today. didn't know how did i hurt this sister of mine and she stopped talking to me. :(

heartburn is back to be and i'm still too energetic to go to bed. guess i need to go to greet goodnight to my boy and rest.

may you rest well too!

goodnight, xoxo#

.... heyo people! :) i'm here to note down about today again. boss called and dad was there to wake me up for my work and i hurt him accidentally, i think. was at work place and didn't enjoy at all and find myself lost half way. i was once thinking i can be the one who keeps my dad's business running but then after all then i wonder if i am able to do so? can i really make it since the father of mine always think that i'm not suitable for it. 

i'm stress. don't ask me why, i've got no idea. probably because my boss is my dad and i hate him treating me in those ways. i thought i'm more mature compared to last time but still i've never ending crying session this month and i really feel like going to see my grandpas in the heaven but then Allen said that we've to be happy even if we feel like dying. 

i don't really remember when was the last time did i smile like i've own everything. 

... anyhow, i walked Cooper twice today. still poo in the house and manja all the time. was once thinking to bathe him again but i was just too tired and so i took a short nap. felt better after all. 

i used to love my work very much and i lost my passion all in a sudden. i thought i can make it as long as i love my family but i've got no idea why. 

one important thing is, what can i do if i leave my dad's stall. 

last but not least, 

my baby boy! :)

goodnight, people. xoxo#

was busy today! baked nestum cookies and ate a lot for no special reasons and i'm full now. very full even before i had my dinner. okay, that was not cool and i'm too tired to step on my gym bike ... and .. i'll be regret tomorrow. so, nevermind, we need not worry about tomorrow, my uncle said and everything has its solutions..... people said. :)

hrmmmm. talk about today's update. why am i here even though i should have gone to bed. because i find myself forgot what i had done yesterday and i feel like noting down something for today. :) hrmmmmm. 

really didn't much but got to walk Cooper twice today. that naughty boy can't hold his poo again and so i bring him out whenever he barks cause he was once barking loud at us whenever he wants to poo. :) the smart boy barks whenever he feels like going out or want us to see him nowadays. always so so so manja and i wonder how can i survive without seeing him. :(

made a cup of dragon fruit smoothies for myself when i was home. best smoothies i ever made, so far. try it if you want and i hope it will not let you down. 

a big slice of dragon fruit + yogurt + honey + ice and blend it! 

best detox juice i've had so far, really. :) 

okay, done crapping and had to go to bed. :D 

hopefully, tomorrow is a good day. 

goodnight, people. xoxo#

:))

had a very busy week. cousins are back from Scotland and so we had fun baking in our uncle's house! thank you for your awesome oven, ah pek! :)

baked a cake for the youngest uncle of mine for his birthday. was once thinking the cake would be lousy but people said it was good even though i found it too sweet. oh, not my hard work cause i was the photographer. kakakakaka~!

baked cookies and made jelly too! :) lots of people helped us and we had fun, really. thank all the aunts who sponsored fruits and stuff. thank uncle for his oven, maid for cleaning stuffs and recipe. :) 

taken pictures. 

the classic cheesecake. 

the cookies

the jelly! 

went Kampar yesterday. it was fun even though the trip was really tiring.. =) atmosphere went different in these days. glad my friends are all back and we had fun chit chatting around. :)

got to go off cause i ate too much and so i had to cycle. :D 

goodnight, people. xoxo#

had an enjoyable weekend even though we had a small world war 3 at home last Saturday. hehehehehehe. 

made konnyaku jelly with Hui Xin which is part of the project i've done and out of my plans, after all then still i could finish up everything i wanted to do and so everything was great. :) appreciate everything and that was so cool. teheeeeee. was once thinking to make jelly again cause my mom wants to make something better and nicer so i gave up. :) 

no, they are not excuses. probably because i'm not good in making jelly. hehehee and i'm running out of ideas about what kind of jelly i can make and then again i'm not a good cook and so i am scared if i fail my project. i'm going to make at least thrice so that i can make for people other than my supporters. hehehehehe. 

tadaaaa. Xin's Konnyaku jelly with my mould. looks extremely colourful with 3 kinds of fruits which are dragon fruit, pineapple and kiwi. :) 

was bugging my sister for the barbecued pork ribs cause i fell in love with barbecued pork ribs and i've got no idea how to make it and so she treated me half rack of pork ribs with her first salary! :) my sister loves me and i know it. :) thank you for telling me that we've pork ribs in Alor Star too! :)

taste nice. even better than Flaming Kansas City, i think. the only thing i don't like is the side dishes about the coleslaw or something which are the green and white broccoli. :P~

the chicken burger i requested for. very yummy too even though it is quite expensive compared to the other chicken burgers. :)

got up late today at about half past eight in the morning. don't remember when was the last time that i don't wake up at seven or four. lol. that was really good and i really like that. =) thats what happened if we work continuously for many days and never get enough sleep. not because of the elders in the house but the bad me who loves to stick with my laptop and the stupid son of me. hehehehehe. 

don't remember how many times do i go bathing nowadays.. :)

okay. got to go for light breakfast and work! gonna be real busy today! wish us luck and morning people! may you have a good day!

xoxo#

Run-away doggy!

the papa of mine called earlier when i was upstairs telling Cooper ran away from home.

that freak me out and so i ran down to shout Cooper, Cooper and he didn't even bark at me. =.=" after all then i found that he was in the house. LOL.

stop scaring me, stupid son. its been a while since i got scared in that way. hehehee.

by the way Cooper gained weight and i'm going to cut off the food he can eat and make him exercise more so that he can live longer with me. :) that boy started to bark since yesterday and it was so good. LOL. at least he made me felt that i've him. :)

last but not least, 

the super naughty son of mine! :)

got to sleep or i'll be regret later. :) 

goodnight, people. xoxo#

was really busy working last week and don't really remember what actually happened in the past few days. :P~ no, and i've got nothing to update unless the fried chicken with lemongrass and the not-so-tasty cookies i baked. kekekekeke. 

bought 2 chicken thigh-s a few days before friday just because i wanna make boneless fried chicken for my sister! :) couldn't make it on Friday cause we had lots of food my papa bought from SP and so i made it on Saturday. hrmmmm. thank Buddha it was not too salty even though i marinated for 2 days, mommy claimed that the aroma of lemongrass was too heavy but i think it was fine for me. hehehehehe. even my sister didn't complain, thats why. :P~

my fried chicken. never know that we can fried chicken with rice flour too! hehehehe. :) taste alright. :)

bake flourless peanut butter cookies because there is a bottle of peanut butter left in the fridge. it was crunchy but i wonder why is it not tasty. probably because i have to measure the amount of vanilla essence i can put but i didn't. teheeee. :P~ 

i have some of them with nutella spread but they look really ugly to show out. lol. 

anyhow, thank you for the recipe. :) 

hrmmmmm. getting more and more tired. i've to sleep since its Wednesday tomorrow! very important day! :)

goodnight, people. xoxo#

Kerabu Glass Noodle

thought of making fun of my mom when i was working earlier today and so i suggested her to buy this and that for me so that i can cook! hehehehehehe. thought of making lemongrass pork chop at first but then she said that there is pork leftover in the fridge and so i thought of buying chicken thigh and chicken breast from the market of Kampung Berjaya. :D 

asked my mom to get me 2 cucumbers and i forgot that i actually don't need cucumber for kerabu. lalala~ :P

my type of kerabu 

all you need are a medium sized purple onion, half a tomato, half a chicken breast, handful of glass noodle, fish sauce, lime juice, sugar, cili padi and chicken stock. :D i don't really use the chicken stock in packet cause i've some soup left after steaming the chicken breast. after all then it taste alright just that i should have boil the glass noodle longer cause its different with those we got from Thailand and it is too chewy for old people like us. hehehehehehehe. :D 

just got up from bed not long ago. was once planning to bring Cooper to go for a walk in the evening but then i only see Moon when i got up from my bed after my short nap. hehehehehee. tomorrow, maybe. :P~ okay, ya, right, i'm an irresponsible mommy. hehehehee. 

leaving then. nighty night, people. xoxo#

love?

talked to a friend of mine this morning, before i went for morning walk with Cooper. 

he said that i've grown up and i've to face my problems but living in the past. he asked me to love myself more and i told him that i don't like myself and that pissed him off. hehehehehehe. he knows who he is. 

oh well, don't ask me if i love myself. i'm not very sure about that but then i know i love my family. i'll be smiling whenever i see them smile. i'll cry too whenever i see them cry. 

i know i love my sister and brothers. i'm thinking of ways to make good food for them even though i know they don't like them just because i wish that sometimes in the future they like what i've done for them.

i know i love my parents and i do whatever they like and try to avoid whatever they don't like me to do. 

i know i love my best friends. i don't have many best friends to list out and they know who they are. 

i love my car, without any reason.

i love everything which is related to me. EVERYTHING but i wonder if i love myself.

someone told me that i'm not happy and i'm not very sure about that. he said that sometimes later he wishes that i will tell him that i'm happy with my life. hrmmmmmmmm. 

oh well, am i not happy? do i look like unhappy? :D 

i don't know .... 

guess its not important cause you love me. :) don't deny else why did you say that my words broke your heart!!! lalala~ :P 

BUT one thing i'm sure is COOPER LOVES ME. i play an important role in his life. he'll be there for me no matter when do i go to hold his paws. he hugs me everyday too. :)

 my friend's question killed millions of my brain cells. heheheehe. so, i pampered myself with a pot of tomyum!

hehehehehe. with 3 big pranws. one for papa, one for mommy and one for me! :D 

let me share how did i cook this pot of Tomyum. i boiled a couple of kaffir lime leaves, a tomato, purple onion and a lemongrass. then only i added tomyum stock and tomyum paste. after all then i added in whatever i've in the fridge and then my tomyum is ready! :) not hard, right? if i can make it, everyone else can! :)

getting hungry again. going off for lychee and some chit chat time with Cooper! :)

goodnight, people. xoxo#

Spring Rolls

made spring rolls in the past weekend 

I've got no idea how to make the spring rolls and so i followed my cousin's recipe about popiah salad and wrapped it with the Vietnamese spring rolls wrappers. 

with cucumber, carrots, turnips and almond. :) 

with picked cucumber, carrots and extra crab meat. :)

ugly, i know. i'll try to think of ways to make better spring rolls next time. :)

hrmmmmmm.. after all then, they don't really like the spring rolls and i've more than 10 pieces of wrappers left. still, i can try for a few times more! =)

going off then.

goodnight, people.

xoxo#

got it!

got the postcard posted by Win Shen to me. :) how sweet!!! hehehehehehehe.

yea, right. he is the first one who posts postcard for me. :) 

taken picture. 

first time ever that i saw British stamp. :D 

look, what did he write? 

yea, right, i'm single. so, dear, please believe me that i want to date a man and make it as a very important target of my life. LOL. sounds weird but ITS REAL. :P~ isn't dating a man something good, so why do we need to be tension on it, right!! i guess you agree with me. so, *high five* hehehehehehe. 

don't make me miss you more and please come back as soon as you can cause I WANNA HUG YOU. :P~

kay lar, lots of pictures taken, either homemade food or Cooper but i'm just too tired to come for long update. will be back as soon as i've enough rest, i promise. :)

so, good night people. 

xoxo#