Hi 2013, bye 2012!

It's the last day of the year again. How was this year? Not too bad I think, if boat was sunk and being single for another year were not big deals!

Can cook better food now, even though pork in soy sauce taste saltier than salted fish sometimes. :)

Can bake better butter cookies with chocolate chips and almond cookies.

Can blog with an iPhone.

Can have Cooper by my side.

After all then everything is fine. :) some people said that I'm not educated and I disappoint them because of the limited knowledge I've. I can't get over this issue yet, so far and someone told me to be myself saying that I'm a human needn't care of so many things.

I decided to continue what am I doing but regret listening to people. I'm Yee Chui, I'll never be anyone else you're looking for. :)

Stubborn, I know but that's my choice, that's my life. Maybe I'll change later, who knows? People change from time to time, not only me! :)

New year resolution? I don't have. :)

But still I wish everyone happy new year and get whatever he or she wants for year 2013. :)

Goodnight#

Papa's lunar birthday!

we celebrated birthday with the father of mine today which was his lunar birthday and i'm going to bring him out for his birthday meals which falls on 3rd January again. :) 

talking about birthday. something funny actually happened. i thought it was yesterday and so i fried pork balls and made pork balls mee sua for him yesterday and then only i found out that i actually remembered wrong date and it falls on today!

so my mom made him a bowl of mee sua again. 2 bowls of birthday mee sua for this year, how lucky! :P~ 

talking about my father, likes to mumble around and very annoying sometimes, he knows what i thought even if i don't tell, not better than mommy but still he knows! my lecturer, my boss. never talk sweet stuff and very strict to me. manja sometimes. :) 

thats my dad. lovely too sometimes. hehehe. support me no matter what i cook. comment sometimes and tell me nobody can fly before walk. after all then i think i love my dad, very much. more than myself, i think even though he forever tell me i'm dumb. :)

uh. mee sua. my mom said that i'm annoying that i make sure everyone of us has a bowl of mee sua on our birthday and thats really annoying! i told my mom that because we're Chinese and so we have to eat mee sua! its not about tradition and also mee sua is tasty isn't it? tasty pork balls, tasty mee sua, eggs with soy sauce. everything is just so yummy, why skip that? i'll make sure everyone of my kids have that on their birthday too sometimes later in the future, if i ever get married! :)

i even thought of making Cooper mee sua on his birthday too! why? isn't he Caucasian? hehehehehe. because his mom is a Chinese and so he has to follow the tradition.. that's what i thought. :) mee sua with slices of pork and carrot. sounds yummy too. :P~ 

hrmmm. anyway, happy birthday papa! :) be strong, happy and healthy always! ;) LOVE YA!!! 

dad's mee sua i made yesterday. 

tired already. sore throat. feverish.

going off. goodnight. :D

HOHOHO.. its Christmas. :)

people celebrate Christmas and i felt the joy of the season even though i don't celebrate it. my parents are conservative and i find okay not celebrating it even though i feel like exchanging gift with people and party around too! :)

talking about Christmas. its fun that my siblings are back at home for holidays.

too tired to stay awake until i see this boy and so i have to go to bed. taken Paracetamol again because i feel sick and i have to be real healthy in the coming two days or i'll be in deep trouble. :)

made pork balls just because my dad's lunar birthday falls on tomorrow.

its time. bed time. be back soon. ;)

night, pals and merry merry Christmas to people who celebrate it and get ready for your Boxing day! :)

很多人说今天就是世界末日，我不想相信。从来就不想相信，因为我有很多想做的还没做。

如果就那么死了，会有遗憾吗？

老实说，不会。

我有个幸福的家庭，我没有不孝于我的婆婆和爸爸妈妈。我爱我的哥哥，弟弟和妹妹。我没有欠人家钱，没有做对不起自己良心的事情，更没有杀人放火，等等等等。

如果注定要死，我改变不了什么。

为什么说如果有选择我不想死？

因为我想去旅行，有机会的话我想去韩国吃路边摊！去意大利，台湾等等的地方看世界，如果可以选择，我希望我可以谈场恋爱，让爸爸妈咪不担心我的未来。

我还有很多菜不会做，我想学做菜给家人吃。为了学会做菜，我什么都能忍受。

可是那不是我需要的而是想要的，所以是次等的，没有那么重要。

如果说，今天是世界末日，我也没有遗憾了，所以说起我应该是幸福的。

幸福其实可以很简单，吃得温饱，开心就好！

原来我也是幸福的。

谢谢你们，因为有你们，我很幸福。感恩

晚安

heyo. :) 

not feeling well today with the monthly sickness i have and pain is still there even though i took pain killers and not exceeding the portion i can take just because i think i might need the pain killers tomorrow. 

my mom knew how suffer was i and so she was there to mumble around saying i never like chinese herbs or she'll buy some for me... ERGH. yes, she is so right. i'm never a chinese herbal soup person. hehehehe.

i'm here to be a manja person today to note down why i need to be healthy! 

parents are way older and manja than i expected. parents need me to remind them in stuffs and fetch them everywhere.

they never forget to ask me to rest everyday!

there was once i thought everyone's parents mumble everyday! i was wrong, some people don't mumble. we need elders to remind sometimes right! :D  

i should be happy with the lovely parents given. :) not to compare if they love me, as long as i love them.

thank mommy for hot pillow!

i've to rest. i've to work.

some people are counting down for 21st December. sorry to say that i hope your dream is not going to come true. too many goals to achieve, too many things to do. too many people to see and one last thing is i haven't date a man and deliver baby yet! i told myself i will make bento for my kids everyday in the future. hehehehe. 

night, people.

:)

lalalala~ spent whole day dating the sofa today. less efficient, i know but i've got no idea why was i tired even though i didn't go to work this morning.

fetched my parents to JPN for new identity card and then i found i'm old already. why? because my papa fetched there for my first identity card when i was 12 and after a decade then i fetched them there for boarder pass and identity card. :) feeling proud that i can help them doing something! :)

mommy told me that she wanted to make sambal dried prawns and so she asked if i wanna learn from her. its a golden chance since my mom never offered me that before.

learnt to saute sambal which i never knew how and mommy told me to add in chili paste before cooking oil. isn't hard and i think i might be able to make it too next time. hopefully not too bad. :)

didn't go to see ah ma in the past few days due to the laziness ... went over today.. ah ma is still cute!

yes, happy day!

ah. bed time.

night people!

yo people! i'm back. :D was missing for a couple of weeks due to the heavy workload of mine. been really busy working everyday and sticking on my bed after work. the immune system of mine gone crazy and i feel sick pretty often. not very serious but slightly heater than usual and then i had to force myself to drink a few cups of water and take Paracetamol. 

after all then i'm forever sleepy, forever tired and keep on yawning everyday. hehehehe. my life is shorten, i think. =)

anyhow not being here to complain. :)

baked a cake for my sister on her birthday! she loves it even though we got to eat a small slice of the cake only. :)

my only sister. forever lovely even though she mad at me pretty often when i "tuk" her stomach and pinch her nose. hehehehehehe. 

talk about life. pretty busy until i've no time to take picture of Cooper everyday even though i don't really remember what had i done. gained weight like mad. attended class with auntie Sook Boon and the aunties in the class were really scary that they can shake every part of their body very fast and i couldn't follow them. it was such ashamed to admit that i was way lousier and my knee couldn't support me for those exercises.

feeling really tired and i feel like taking a short nap.

i hate being panda yee chui.. :( i miss my grandmother already. haven't been visiting her since 28th November. longest period ever, i think. i'll go, tomorrow. =) promise myself, promise the world and i have to make it or i'll postpone it forever!

so, good day, people. :)

hectic week i had! love November all in a sudden just because lots of birthday parties we had and people came home for parties! :D 

younger brother was back on his off day and we had a small birthday celebration for him! found that he is so mature all in a sudden cause i went dating whole day with him. hrmmmm. i had a short nap on that day knowing that he would bug me to go around the town with him. yea, my brother. forever manja. :) forever lovely. 

taken picture with him. papa was the photographer. 

things happened. people may think that i poked fire but sometimes you've to think properly when you talk. i know you're smart enough in telling people stuffs. i know i'm not smart and i may not sense the right thing but your purpose was there. you've to admit that cause you said that but deny all the way just because you didn't say the words. that's what i thought. just like how you thought of us. i like to be straight forward so that people will not misunderstand each other. i was upset because i care but i think i care too much and so i deserved to be upset.

i actually prioritized the gathering of mine with cousins. i can sleep lesser for gathering. i don't complain because i have to work at different time with people just because i chose it. doesn't mean that my job is less important just because i'm a fishmonger. i think we have to manage our time for our plan but asking people to tolerate with us. nobody can tolerate forever.

i may be wrong but everyone thinks he is right. different perception, different opinion. 

i'm ready for lecture. :) 

lalala~ had information about the trip! i'm getting nearer to Jeju! Teddy's museum! OMG! my bestie knows how much do i love teddy or i would not get a teddy on my 18th birthday. special teddy from special person, how cool is that! :D 

kay, bed time. not too wise to keep on staying up late or i'll regret. :)

night, people. 

heyo people! i'm here again after complaining about the neighbour of mine. hehehehehe. had a busy week and enjoyed like there is no tomorrow. 

cousins were back to the town and we went around for bowling, durian, egg tarts and cookies baking. yes, i was really happy and learnt something new about making egg tarts even though i didn't help in making the dough. :P 

only one picture taken with my ah ma. why? because i was the photographer even though i didn't take nice picture. lack of skills but still, good enough for memories, i think. i love being myself. i'm stubborn i know. i'm not good enough, i know but i'm happy with it. :) hell yea, lots of effort i need to improve myself, like cooking, baking and pictures taking. :D 

you knew what, i burnt one of the trays of cookies i baked and it was just a waste with the nice oven provided! :D i'm ready for new lessons just because i find myself smiling whenever i bake and cook and i don't feel tired no matter how long do i stay in the kitchen. :) that's strange. i  only find myself not being tired when i stick with my laptop last time and i've got new hobby! how cool is that!! yea, yea. too talkative, right? because my sister is not back at home and i can tell nobody else! :D i know she is reading this and i miss her badly. guess she is missing me too with all the notifications showed in FB. :D

now, i know you love me too. you've to tell me you love me or i'll not know. show it to me like how ah boy did else i might lose myself half way, sometimes. :) i'm grateful that my siblings love me. i'm happy that my parents care of me. i'm really happy even though we're not rich. someone told me that we lived in our own world because we drive Japanese car which only people who work with low income buy but rich people! no, we're not rich but we're happy with our live. that's enough for me.

my dad asked me not to blame people who disappoint me but myself just because i expected too much. i find it true..

uh....... something is not right. else why did i type so much? :D 

taken pictures.  

my ah ma and I. 

made kimchi for the friend of mine who met a very big problem which i can do nothing to help. oh well, i know she is not going to read this but still, my moral support is there for you. tell me if you need to release your stress and i will give you no matter how many bottles of kimchi you need! yea, this friend of mine loves kimchi!

talking about Kimchi. my kimchi is saltier then the kimchi i used to make. smells alike but saltier, my mom said. added garlic chives! :) made it all by myself. :) didn't ask for help from my mom at all. proud, really. :D 

trimmed baby's fur again this week. heheheheh. trimmed the left hand of him but right hand. hahahahahhaa. made it in purpose to see if anyone finds it out! :D 

my baby! forever so active. forever so cute. cutest puppy in my heart! 

lalala~ its time to walk baby boy. he needs longer walk cause he gained weight! fatty boy needs to slim down a bit so that he can stay handsome! :D

so, advanced happy birthday, baby! yea, another baby Vios!

hehehehehe. :D

leaving. :D evening walk with my son! see ya. bye# :D

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今天心情不好，爸爸说因为我在专牛角尖。

因为专牛角尖所以情绪被影响了。

其实就很小件的事情，说出来的话，你们不可以取笑我哦！呵呵

今天，我遛狗去了。因为我时常都由我的仔仔“自由发挥”想在哪儿上厕所，就在哪儿上厕所，然后我再重新清洗，绝对不能像原本那样清洁可是并不会把粪便留在原地，可是今天我遇到对手了。

在邻居家前面的马路，它很大胆的大解了，而就那么刚好的主人家回来了。我很不好意思的跟她说我会清理的，可是她说，" If you don't mind, it is really dirty and unhealthy! " 然后就气冲冲的走进家里了。

我，不平衡！

我说啦，我会清理的。我常遛狗可是我绝对不会把粪便留在路边啊。

其实纯粹想要发泄！说他冤枉我吗？她又不认识我，当然会生气。说她觉得他很厉害的，用那看不起我的眼神看我吗？那是他家的事，他喜欢怎样就怎样!

过后，我想过了！其实是我在气我自己修养不够好。因为他说了一句话，我气了一整天！情绪被影响了，因为一个会跟不懂事的狗狗计较的人而影响！

我也太笨了一点。

呵呵

我希望，我可以从这里学到不在那么介意，那些无关紧要的事情！因为那只是在浪费时间。

突然之间，我好想念你哦，那个听我诉苦的人！

its been quite a while since my last visit? not too long this time, i think. :)

been working really hard for my baby because its birthday falls on 26th of this month and i'm going to send it to workshop for a proper service. hehehehe. i've got no idea how many times did i get into accident hitting people's car with its bumper. Ergh, it needs proper polish too i think? hehehehe.

i felt sorry for making him imperfect for so many years. yea, its his 4th birthday. do i need to get him a birthday cake? :P

life runs smooth. know more about my work. learn other minor parts which i never knew when i was younger. find myself too straight forward when i talk.

lalala~ talking about work. there was one day that i thought i needn't work and i got up at 4 in the morning. saw bestie online and chit chatted around. :) forgot what we talked about but he promised that he will hang out with me when he is back in hometown until he gets bored seeing me. how cool is that!! hehehehe. yea, i love this friend of mine. guess he loves me too? :)

oh too far away from the topic. hahahaha. something funny actually happened. got up at night and felt like eating meat and found nothing i can eat in the fridge other than the processed meat and so i defrosted the pork i bought from the market at the other day and started to marinate it. after all then uncle called and i left for work at 6.

braised pork. taste good unless it was too salty. hehehehe. my dad said that it taste even saltier than the salted fish. hahahahaha. nevermind, i always believe that practices make perfect. heh if there is a chance for me to cook it again then i'll take picture and post it here. :)

i really wonder why did i like you, listening to you more than my parents. i didn't know why and i don't feel like knowing already. i finally realized that i actually don't like you. how funny is that since i spent 6 years kept on telling myself i like you! released, finally. now i know i can reject you too! :)

i guess i'll be better really soon because talking to you or not is no longer important for me. :) i feel like slapping myself for my sister! :)

yea, i'm here to complain. because i know people who care me will read but don't worry. i eat and poo like normal. heheheh..

kay lar. smoothie time. bed time. :D

been busy working but playing with the fatty of mine and so i was once planning to walk him after getting up from my nap but then i found myself drinking too many cups of coffee until i stayed awake for the whole evening even though i kept on yawning for a couple hours. nothing helps even though i tried my sleep pillow and everything. 

i was regret after all and so i changed my plan! i came down and had my early dinner, walked him and bathed. :) getting more and more tired and so i'll be sleeping before 9. how cool is that! :D

was working without my uncle in the past few days. learnt lots of new stuffs. people expected me to know more and i know nothing. yes, i'm learning to be better than them. i'm learning to work with or without them. i'm working really hard to be better than them and my dad will be proud of me, one day! i know i can't do everything but then i believe that i can make it one day! :) it takes time. being better than them is part of my goal now. i'm going to hit it before i step on the land of Korea Republic. biggest goal ever! :D 

thank you for telling me i know nothing for working so long. =]

hrmmmm. i'm almost there. :D may i  sleep tight! :D 

when i was about to go to pick his poo. hahahaha. weirdo doesn't like to stay outside without me. :))

i'm so grateful to have my son all these while who jumps around whenever he sees my car

i'm so grateful to hug him whenever i'm emo

i'm so grateful to have him in my life! :) 

i love my boy very much

yea la, confessing. :D 

night, people! :D 

lalala~ i'm here again, not to stop myself from going bed but waiting for my customer to answer my calls!! ARGH. why off phone at this important moment. HRMM. yea, i'm starting to complain. hehehehe. my dad hates this. :P~

okay, life is fun. runs smooth when the queen was not around because i made noises in the kitchen just that i think i was too tension in my work and i got up at 6 in the evening today and i thought i missed going to work. then i  told my dad that i missed working and he said it was evening. i finally relax a bit and went back to sleep for a few minutes more. hehehehehe.

made siew mais for my papa, shui khows for myself. :) boiled soup with sengkuang and pork ribs and cooked the shui khows with the soup. :)

mommy told me to eat less fatty pig and chicken but then i told her we have different ways to release stress. she loves shopping and i love eating. we look stuffs in different ways and we like different thing. i dont eat poultry everyday so why can't she tolerate with me? hrmmm. after all then i know its for my own good. :)

talking about work. people ask if i am regret. nobody will regret for his responsibility. i'm taught to be a responsible girl. i'm an adult, no longer a kid. i chose my future,  i've to finish it up even if i have to crawl all over my journey because its my choice and i cannot give up. yes i'm stubborn.

HRMM. finished complaining.

its time. bed time.

night people. :D

病了

今天，病了，怎么说？真的病了吗？不怎么懂，感觉好像发烧啦。浑身热热的，提早觉得累了。刚刚看了时钟才发现，原来还早，我不知不觉中觉得很累。怎么形容？笔墨难以形容。呵呵。

今天我要破例啦，就趁病了，来这里开开玩笑，还要是用母语的。呵呵。

今天干嘛了呢？就给宝贝儿子洗澡，剪头发的。之后就堕落了，一整天。不懂为什么，就是躺在沙发上休息，也觉得特别的累。

想念我弟弟妹妹了，没机会撒娇。昨天弟弟问我怎么不反省自己，怎么不出去拍拖，认识多点人。你知道吗，有个人跟我说过一些话，感觉上是在开玩笑的，可是深深的伤了我的心。他说因为我没文凭，所以单身。我压根儿不懂那到底有什么关系。说我没自信吗？如果可以以数量词来计算我的自信心，我多得是，只是在不一样部分的。在我脑海里，家，很重要。守护爸爸妈妈，很重要。有时候，很累，可是如果我的那个他因为我没念书而嫌弃我，我希望我能够很清楚的告诉他，我不是他在寻找的那一位幸运儿。我，就是我啊，从你开始认识我的那一天，我就是那个我。

可能你们不赞同，可是继承父业比什么都好要重要。不赞同的话，我希望你们别嫌弃我，因为啊，我们只是观点不同，我只是有点坚持了。

读书？我去过。我放弃了。笨吗？还好吧，我没有考不及格，后悔吗？不后悔，因为他们让我学到太多太多了，也是因为他们，我妹妹失去了她以前的大姐。埋怨吗？我没有权利，因为那时成长的过程，我只是太自以为是了。


我想许愿，可以吗？

我希望，我睡醒，就会康复。我得做工，我要做工。我，病不起。这几天很重要。微不足道的愿望，会实现吧？ :)

我，超级不开心的，走啦。我的母语好像怪怪的。呵呵呵 希望再看的你们没在嫌弃哦。

保重。

晚安

Hot dog buns

heyo. i'm here just to stop myself from going bed after heavy dinner. hehehehe. keep on yawning cause the little boy of the house bugged me to go dating with him and so i couldn't take nap. told him i wanted to make them some hot dog buns so that he can have it at home and pass one to his lovely sister living in Penang. :D 

yea. full. satisfied. guilty and FAT. hehehehehe. just because we love sweet stuffs and so we bought vanilla ice-cream and made root beer float so that we can have it with our hot dog buns. :D cool.

talking about my buns. found recipe when i was surfing around and i found that. nice, my brother said and i didn't know that its actually for barbecued sauce but mustard and chili sauce. hehehehe. oh well, taste okay with me even though i didn't serve it with barbecued sauce and i added caramelized onion. :D 

taken pictures.

boy's 

mine. i find it weird having mustard and mayonnaise together and so i had it with chili sauce. :)

getting tired. getting older. hehehehe. need to bathe and wash my hair before i date my bed.

may you have a good evening! :D

night, people.

杏仁饼

heya .. !! i'm here to update my blog with the recipe of the almond cookies i baked at the other day.

found a recipe when i was hoping around the blogs. i find it very easy baking almond cookies and i'll bake again on the coming lunar new year for my beloved friends and relatives. best thing is that it taste like those we used to buy from outside. :) 

lalala. thank you for the recipe so that i can bake it even though i don't have self raising flour left in my house! :) by the way, just in case you read the recipe, i didn't follow the whole recipe again as in i added 100g ground almond instead of 80g and 130g plain flour instead of 150g. taste alright after all and maybe i can reduce the oil we used. Jane cut off 10g of the oil from the recipe and her almond cookies look fine too and so i think maybe its alright for me to cut off the oil. :)

taken pictures.  

too lazy to add on sesame seeds and make them bunny! hehehehe. don't ask me what are these. i am not sure also. hehehe.

okay! not feeling well. was having heartburn all day long and i think its time to date my bed.

lots of plans for tomorrow! :) wish me luck for my frankrut bread and rendang! :D

night, people!

heyo, people! :)

i'm here to note down something before i go on to bed! :) where did i go again all these while and stop coming for a week plus? hehehehehe.

went on to date korean man and never stop myself from dating him and people know i don't have extra time for series and so i suffer yawning everyday! yea but still after all then i find it worth because of him i smile more and stress less. :D :D my sisters know who is he. yea, sisters. :D they know who they are! :)

chasing series was part of stuff i did. had an enjoyable weekend which was holiday for non muslim and Raya Haji for the muslim! what did i do? hehehehe. something really interesting for a beginner in cooking and baking like me. cooked and baked cause the queen was not at home. :) found new recipe for pork but then bought wrong part of pork and so it taste lousy! aroma was really good but too chewy to be eaten til i find myself lazy chewing pork like chewing gum. hehehehehhe.

taken pictures? yes of course just that i find myself too lazy to upload now. :P~ will do because i i just feel too tired to stay awake for a long essay and i need to note down something about the almond cookies. :)

talked to the beautician last night and she asked me how did i release stress when we feel stressful. i told her to care less like what i did. talking about stress, i'm really relax nowadays since someone complained to my boss. probably because he finds himself guilty or whatever reason i don't know. :)

thank you. :)

and

thank you for making my birthday beautiful. i hope i'm not going to Korea on that day. i hope i'll be there for you on that day. :) i know i'm lucky enough and my dream will come true.

yea. getting nearer to Korea. its time to work hard, spend less and save money! :) i want to have the most unforgettable trip in Korea. i need to make it. :) thats my current goal. no, i don't have long term goal to achieve, forever short term goal. hehehehehe but then as long as i'm happy since its my life? :)

its time to dream. :)

goodnight, people.

一路走好...

刚刚在面子书上看到曾经是可米小子的申东靖离开人世了，突然间感到很伤感。

曾经曾经，我可是每天每也都在重播可米小子的“求爱复刻版”呢。可米小子的歌在我年少时留下了不少很好的回忆。现在重播依然觉得，小时候很幸福啊，听着听着就觉得人生无常啊。年纪轻轻的就离开人世到极乐世界去了。

有段日子，我和妹妹时常看台湾综艺节目,妹妹开口闭口都是申东靖好可爱啊。我们还一直一直重播那些片段。

突然间好想再看那些节目哦。

你离开了，你深深的存在我们的回忆里了。谢谢你，在我的心中你是一位很棒的艺人。

希望你在另一个世界里能够过得很好。

been working day and night and get really tired in these days. :) had very serious period pain until i promised myself i'll swallow whatever my mom cook for my health and drink less cold drinks. its been a while since i had that kind of pain until i "slept" on the sofa with the hot pillow on my body. probably because i was too tired or that really hurt and i didn't know. :)

my mom promised to boil herbal soup for me and i promised her that i'll drink many bowls but a bowl a month. hehehehe. :D

talking about my life. am i happy? can i feel happiness? hehehehe.

yea, i'm going to type a long essay here just to stop myself from going bed at this moment. yea, tired and i think i can sleep if i can stay awake for another 15 minutes, perfect timing it will be! :)

watched korean series last night and cycled 50 minutes plus just because that series was too nice and i forgot about my timing about cycling. well, not a big deal because its better to cycle long than skip cycling. i don't remember when was the last time did i step on my gym bike, to be honest. very big tummy, very lousy stamina i've now.

dad asked me to eat less chicken and go for healthy food. i told him i'm too young for healthy food and if i've to eat healthy food to live longer, i rather die young. LOL. well, i think God heard me. for examples, i said i hoped to be in the first batch for national service and i got it, i was thinking about the reply of a friend of mine and i saw it in my phone, my ear was itchy and someone i was missing so much called. don't tell me they were all accident, i don't believe in that. i know life is short. i earn 1 ringgit and i spend 2 ringgit. hahahahaha. just because i believe that i'll die young. i even told my mom if i die, please pass my car to my sister and all my money to my brother. hehehehehe. my sister is going to throw pillow on my face when she reads this but i don't care cause she is not at home. :P~

hrmmmmmm.

okay, talking about happiness. i'm happy, i think. with all the family members i've, very kind parents and grandmothers who love me, even though i might not be the one they love the most. very cute sister who loves to bully me all the time, brother who never tell me my cooking is good but he shows me in action that he supports me, brother who lives very far apart with us getting me a smart phone even though i find no way to unlock it. friends who are with me all the time, a car which is not the most expensive but just fit me best, work with flexible time, a son who jumps around whenever he sees my car.

yes, i love everyone of them, from the bottom of my heart. i love those who hurt me because of them i've grown up. i love people who support me even though i cook lousy food. i love people who tell me i'm never right. i love people who used to make me cry so that i can cry less nowadays.

i'm really lucky to have them in my life. nobody is perfect and i'm a stubborn lady. yea, i'm trying. trying my best to be even happier, just because i know i can be even more happy. i'm trying to say no to what i don't like. i'm trying to reject. i'm trying to be myself. i'm not rebel. i'm too old to rebel though. 

i hope that you can help me. i don't mean to hurt you. i just feel like looking for myself and be really happy with my life. you'll support me, right? i know you will. i promise i'll not hurt myself. :)

yea, emo night. hehehehehe.

going off, night people. :))

:)

It's Saturday and it is my favourite day just because I get to come home earlier every Saturday.

Weird thing happened today which I left my keys of my house and car outside overnight and get to find it still after all. Heh

Mom complains that I never keep my things in their own places and so I was wondering why key doesn't ring. Haha yea right funny minded and I'll try to control myself and remember to keep my keys but keeping it outside first after seeing Cooper and running over to hug him every time I'm home. Heh

Talking about my son, i just bathe him today and it is raining cats and dogs with thunder and lightning. He is going to remain stinky tomorrow and I've to send him to a vet for vaccination. Heh

I hope that we'll be alright. :))

.... And I really feel like baking almond cookies today and someone stopped me from doing that. :(

Good day, yo!

Yea, emo days! Lol

"Burger"

Made burger yesterday just because the elders are not at home and my friend came over to see my son!

Should be an interesting day but it wasn't. Gone emo to the max at night and can't get to sleep for the night.

Yea right, dumb I know just because of a minor case I slept less and god knows how important is the sleeping time for someone who works early in the morning like me.

Mention about the minor case? No of course. Too ashamed to tell the world how funny can a person be!

I'll not apologise just because I know I was not wrong. always remember that what adults do, kids follow. Please think thrice before you do or talk something.

Hopefully everything runs smooth. lol

Good day, people!

Seafood bean curd

Heyo people! I'm here again with a new post to stop me from yawning. Hehe. Yea right I'm very tired and I have to keep my eyes open until tonight. I tried every method I can use to keep myself awake, like exceeded my daily coffee intake and so I wish I will not be that tired later.

Talking about the seafood bean curd I made at the other day, I added in 2 Japanese egg tofu, carrot, fish, prawns, pepper, salt, ajinomoto, potato starch and corn starch. Mix everything, adjust the taste and add in potato and corn starch. After all then steam it and deep fried it by coating it with potato starch. It's easy and my dad likes it. :) talking about quantity of ingredients we need for seafood bean curd are hundred gram each for potato and corn starch, fish and prawn and 2 tofu. Followed recipe but didn't follow everything because I was too lazy in measuring the ingredients. Hehe

Oh well you can try mine if you feel lazy weighing ingredients also by adding in 1 tablespoon of corn starch and 3 tablespoon of potato starch. I added in sesame oil, garlic and shallot which are not stated in the recipe. After all then they are still fine. :))

Hrmmm.... You can try it as it is too easy to make! Just because I can make it so does everyone else!

It's time to bathe and get ready to go to meet ah cheap and depart to UUM.

See you again!!

小公主毕业啦！

今天我，决定用华文更新我的部落格。你，有意见吗？呵呵呵呵呵。

是不是很久很久都没有看到我更新我的部落格呢？是滴，本人最近比较忙。忙着偷懒，忙着坐飞机到澳洲去给小公主拍照，参加毕业典礼。因为我们家小公主，黄家五人出发到西澳去了。

还记得那一天，感觉小公主长大啦！妈妈帮小公主化妆，穿衣服的，感觉好像要嫁女儿哦.那一天我们各忙各的，哥哥忙着给小公主买花和熊熊去了，妈咪忙着给小公主装扮，大姐姐我忙着给小公主拍照留念，爸爸忙着唠唠叨叨，终是唸个不停。

去澳洲的感想？改次还记得的话，我会写下来。因为多半是不开心的，所以基本上，不值得一提。

好啦，继续。

那一天，小公主盛装打扮，我们五人浩浩荡荡的到举办毕业典礼的地方去。看了好多人带上四方帽，深深的感受到他们的喜悦。

我的妹妹是不是很可爱啊！在我的眼里，我的妹妹是最美丽的！:) 在我的天地里，我的感觉是最重要的，不是吗？

我们五人

我妹妹长大啦，你，为她感到高兴吗？我最爱的妹妹，可能我不像哥哥一样可以给你买很贵很贵的手表，可能，没见面会想念，见了面会讨厌，可是我还是很爱很爱你的。我，脾气不好。你以前的大姐不在了，你就将就点吧，现在的大姐还是会很疼你的。不开心是依然可以找我啊。如果是Top Secret，你要记得提醒我，然后我就不会转播，hehehe.

妹妹要加油，未来的路还很长。我们会永远支持你的。

好啦，罗哩叭嗦了一堆有的没的。

我会再回来的，晚安#

:]

yooooo... people. :)) how is life treating you!

i'm good. best, so far, i think even though i am really tired of going to work early in the morning, gaining a few kgs and walk like a piglet but still i find my life more interesting. :) how?

not to take everything seriously, be good to myself, love myself more.

i do whatever i like that makes me happy. i read newspapers nowadays. fell in love with China Press. :) apply facial product everyday to keep myself look like 20s but 40s. :)

anyhow, i'm real excited thinking of needn't answer calls for a week. people know i'm allergic to alcohol and so i consulted my doctor to ask for medicine so that i needn't scratch my hands and i'm ready to drink with my siblings.

i'm so in love with this feel even though it might not be fun and i'm going to miss my son real much.

my ear hurts nowadays and i wonder why can't i open my mouth like i used to or my ear will be very painful. worry about it? no off course. nobody can stop me dreaming in these days. :) i'll try to chew food slowly to avoid it to and keep myself dreaming for our family gathering.

talking about my son. Elvis said that he got Cherry eyes which is very common for Cocker Spaniel. my dad said that we can send him for surgery but i think i'll love his "muscles" also if it turns bigger. :) it doesn't matter me because i love him, i shouldn't make him suffer for his muscle, like what Elvis told me! :)

uh. real tired. real tired.

will have to sleep or i can't go out for ah pek's treat tonight! :)

for you, the one who worries about me and mad at me for my fault, sorry. :) dignity is not important for someone i really love but it will not be the same if someone else tries to hurt me, just because i know i am not worthless, not even a slave. :) do not get angry for me just because we see things in different ways. yes, i'm stubborn. you knew it since you knew me right. else why single? :) don't worry.

i love my life. i can tell you that i love myself too. :)

so, will be back as soon as i can. LOL.

see ya!

Ouchhhh...

boy is back at home and i bought 4 coconuts home when  i was in the market for my job. :)) thought my brother likes coconut who knows 3 of us finished up the coconuts. hehehehehe. 

was once not happy cause my brother stepped my "tail" accidentally but then he said hi, so i let it go. heheheheheehhee. :P~ 

taken pictures. :))

my coconuts. parents complained that they are not good and i wonder why. they taste perfectly good for me. lol. :P~

took a short nap. used "sleep pillow" but then i dreamt all the while when i was sleeping and i wanted to eat tomyum and so i cooked a pot of tomyum for myself and boy shared it. :) taste okay. :P~

my tomyum

i hit my back with the wall today. i can hardly stand like normal. that is definitely killing me and i hope i can get well really really soon cause i need to cycle and exercise to burn the fats since i'm getting nearer to Perth. ERGH.

goodnight, pals. :P~

first time ever, pet grooming centre! :))

sent Cooper to pet grooming centre last Saturday and he looks much better now after trimming his fur! his auntie and i will send him there again sometimes really soon, i think. :) why? because i am not a good mom and i never comb his hair for him. the groomer was shocked when she first heard me telling her that i never comb his hair. hehehehehehe. :P~ got to get a comb and comb his hair daily! :)

when we were on our way to grooming centre. he didn't want to look at me at all and his auntie said that he was angry at me because i didn't carry him well.... oh boy, first time ma.... :P~ i'll be better in that after practicing for a couple of times. :D 

he was busy watching the world on our way back home! :)) new hair. ears look less long. hehehehehe. its actually because his fur is way thinner and shorter and so it looks better. better for Cooper also i think, for living in the all day summer country! :))

first thing ever that he had done was eating because we got home at 7 and it was his meal time. :)) poor little boy was shivering in the car and the grooming centre and his granny said that pity him for waiting outside for such a long time and gave him a bit more than usual dog food he had. :)) 

his granny was regret after all cause he poo-ed in the house and i was not free to walk him since i had to work on that morning. lalala~

hehehehhe.

my sister said that i love him too much and kids get spoiled when they have a mom who loves them too much. oh well, he is getting more and more mature and i'm not really worrying about him. :) he likes my pattern also, i think. :P~

i'm going to miss him real much. can i bring him to your convocation, Yee Ching? heheheheh.

going to work.

good day, pals!! :))

幸福

幸福其实很简单

在我眼里，

幸福，

就是放工回家和家里二老一起吃午餐，虽然吃的不是山珍海味，不过还是吃得津津有味

幸福，

就是不开心时给妹妹打电话，撒撒娇，当个无形的电灯泡，虽然无聊，不过很开心

幸福，

就是每天放工回家可以随性的睡很久很久，然后，睡醒时可以发发起床气

幸福，

就是，爸爸妈妈吵架了，我依然有晚餐吃

幸福，

就是，吵架了，还可以抱着宝贝儿子哭泣

幸福，

就是，想睡了，还可以抱着宝贝睡觉（虽然睡醒时，宝贝时常被发现掉在地上）

幸福，其实很简单

有时候会觉得是无形中的压力，不过是个人的看法问题

我决定要当个幸福的小女人，凡事往好的一边看，那么会活得比较开心
我要把以前的黄俞翠带回来
我要活得久一点，然后有机会去每个我想要去的国家（我会帮你带守信的,黄俞亲 :P~）

你会祝我好运吧，爱我的每个人！

走啦，晚安朋友们。

lalala~ i'm here to update my blog before someone asks me why i don't update my blog. :P~

okay... very exciting days i have had. straighten my hair cause someone minds me attending her convocation with my curly hair, tried to trim my son's fur and his auntie complained to me and asked me not to make him ugly, worked like there is no tomorrow and find myself very sleepy even though i drink extra coffee everyday, started to cycle a bit because someone minds me appear in her graduation pictures with my big body and not appearing in pictures. LOL. okay. i know the someone is reading cause i'm here to type for her! :P~ she knows that because i kiasu a bit and so i update before she asks, " why you NO update? " hehehehehehe.

hrmmmm.

first time ever that i'm getting real excited for national day
first time ever that my mom doesn't stop me for buying taro and sweet potatoes
first time ever that i decided to let go the past
first time ever that i apply facial products almost everyday
first time ever that i get phone call for wedding invitation of my friend
first time ever that i feel like buying myself a dress and a pair of high heels
first time ever that i ate sweet kimchi which is made by my lovely mom.

thinking of going back to join yoga class and my sister supports me.

kay, its time. bed time. :)

goodnight, people. may you enjoy your life like i do. :)

someone called home from Scotland and we had super serious war in the house. world war, i supposed.

someone said that he never think of the family. someone said that we have to tolerate. different perception, different opinion cause 2 old people acted like a pair of hedgehogs in the house. for someone who loves hedgehogs got no idea what can she do to help them up and so she kept quiet all night long.

i find myself improved a lot. irresponsible, i know but at least they don't affect my mood that much. not as much as last time and i don't have to wipe my tears. i need to rest, i need to work, i cannot wipe my tears every time they fight and go to work with my swollen eyes.

guess, he wants me to be like that.

sorry lor, i can't smile to you when you wake me up to talk to someone who doesn't even want to talk to me. you complained that i date my laptop often and sleep less and complained around that i've got no enough sleep. what if i have to date a man and not sticking at home everyday. i find myself hard to breathe if i ever get someone to hug even though i'm not double yet. LOL.

you know what, you said we're wrong because we like to tell people on earth that we're wrong, we're dumb. that's what actually you told us that we're silly and you just did what we had done. telling people on earth that you're wrong and so your son left filial piety aside doesn't make you look wiser. lol. that will hurt someone who loves you even more only!

please look with your eyes and see who loves you. stop acting blind when you're given eyes. i know we've no right to blame you for not loving us but can you please don't hurt people who love you? like, saying nonsense to stab their hearts? i know you're smart enough to handle the problem. do it, please. we're too weak to get attacked by you. really.  

leaving then. night pals. :)

super emo night for the 2 hedgehogs. may them get well soon.

Sorry.

didn't know how much did i owe my sister today!

told her what i had done to her and forced her not to go to meet her friends but going tea with me and granny at mac donald's and we can't make it at last and she lost the only chance of her to meet her best friends.

i feel like slapping myself for being busy body all the time.

my dad said that i never stop complaining but why. i actually think that i was not wrong but then i'm guilty after all. how can people not keeping promises and why promise if they can't make that.

most of the time i'll not forget what i had promised and did everything unless letting go the man i used to like so so much that i promised my sister too many times til she doesn't want to believe in me again.

not going to say anything about that cause i'm somehow foolish typing promises here. lol. people knew i promised too much about the man. no, he is not special, Kenneth said. he is a man, like a stranger or friend, nothing more or less but then i've got no idea why can't i differenciate that.

i'm real tired today. so hard to breathe, so sleepy and feel like sleeping as if there is no tomorrow cause i skipped my lunch which was chinese herbal soup which is cooked by my mom for our own good which may help to reduce period pain. yea, i'm naughty. i'll eat when my mom is around to prove that her effort is not wasted but only one bowl a month. :P~ yea, stubborn. :)

hopefully, my sister feels less unhappy now.

people know i love my family the most. nothing can beat that, not even fried chicken or Cooper.

i've to go.

i know you're reading this. sorry, really. i'll do what i promised and not making you sad again. don't believe in me yet but i'll prove it to you.

night, people.

Mommy's birthday

Mdm. Che's birthday fell on yesterday and so i cooked mee sua t'ng for her. mee sua represents long life and  my mom never eat that on her birthday before and i cook her a pot of mee sua t'ng and glad she didn't complain about it. =) 

taken pictures, without faces because all of us was real tired and in pajamas when we had the cake cutting session and so i only took pictures of my mom cutting cake. =)

her mee sua

made Tiramisu according to the recipe my cousin sister gave me and it was quite weird as the egg white turned watery after mixing it into the cheese batter but still after all then it taste alike, i think. 

the tiramisu

i was once thinking i might not be able to make the tiramisu and so i had plan B. plan B was good or my mom got no choice to cut a cake on her birthday! ;)

taste chocolate-ish. :D 

the sister of mine was holding the hands of my mom!

hrmmm. its holiday tomorrow. i'm so into holiday mood and i was once thinking to stay as late as i could so that i enjoy my holiday to the max and i'm tired already. yea, plan B. i'm going to sleep as long as i can and pay my granny a visit for breakfast date tomorrow!! :)

so, happy holiday to non muslims and happy raya to all the muslims!!

may i sleep tight. may you enjoy your holiday to the max. may you have lots of great food during raya like Lemang, Ketupat, Rendang !! wow....  dropping saliva around. :P~ hopefully, you're as excited as me!! :)

night, people! xoxo#

Dessert trip!

someone asked me why didn't i come to update. kakakakakaka. irresponsible blogger? no, off course because i'm a part time blogger only since i deleted the old blog of mine. :) do i cook? no, not really for the past few days but today! fried rice and cooked tomyum. i am waiting for my parents's prince home for my late dinner. super hungry and i wonder why is he not home yet!!! hrmmmmmmm.. 

what did i do today? looking for recipe all day long and thinking if i can bake 2 cakes for my mom on this coming Friday. Chocolate Moist Cake and Tiramisu? what do you think? Tiramisu is a must because i bought Mascarpone Cheese today! yea, the one you like the most, Ms. Ooi. :D hrmmmm. i'll have to think about it. :) 

okay, back to my dessert trip! paid someone a visit cause she can't come back for the weekend and i bugged her to bring me to Blackball for yam ball.. lalala~ glad i went there though and my mom said that i can make my own yam ball next time!! woohooo.. but where can i go to get sweet potato starch? that's the thing and can i substitute it with potato starch? kekeke. i'll think of it, really. too yummy to be eaten and i can't wait to make it. :))

our first Blackball in 1st Avenue mall. 3 of us shared this cause someone said that she will never support competitor's store. lalalala~ 

someone was busy dealing with the staff of Citibank and then i saw a buy 1 free 1 sorbet promotion at Next Stop and so i had a sit there with the 2 elders and noob sister!! :D :D 

Sorbet! Mango Passion and Orange Passion. :)) worth trying during the promotion but normal days!! hahahahaha. 

went to Kimberly St. for dinner since Boy finished his work at around 8 and we had to come back earlier. :) 

my peanut soup and Almond tea. urmm.... i like peanut soup the best. kakakakaka. 

hrmmm. i'm very very very happy and i feel like telling people on earth i'm smiling after wiping my tears for a month! don't ask me why cause i don't really remember already. i'm looking for the passion which i lost for my work. i'm very sure that i'll be okay after that. maybe, after my trip? :) i'm getting nearer to Perth! :D

okay, going off to make juice for my brother! welcome back Boy!

night, people! :D

Bacon Rolls II

watched 8tv last Sunday and found another recipe for bacon rolls and so i made it when Boy was back last Wednesday. Ching said that it was really delicious even though she dislikes prawns. heh. 

let me share with recipe with you! :)

 

all you need for the bacon rolls are, bacon, scallions, prawns, potato starch, flour, egg and bread crumbs. :) stick the prawns with the potato starch on the bacon, add in scallions and roll it. easy, isn't it? after all then pour some flour on the roll, dip in to the beaten egg and add in bread crumbs. after all then deep fried the rolls and control the heat. lower the heat as much as you can. :) 

after all then your bacon rolls are ready. 

for the dipping sauce, you need thai chili sauce, pineapple cubes, sesame oil, parsley and lemon. :) 

i saw chef eddie added everything in together and stir it but then i didn't follow his recipe, so i'm not very sure  if it is good but you can try! :) mix and match and then tell me if it is good!! :)

my bacon rolls, for someone who loves bacon like me, it taste good! :) 

the dinner box i made for my sister! 

things happened and i was really depressed. too tired to stay alive and told my parents i want to move out from this place where i used to call it home for so many years.

i don't know what can we do to solve the problems and i find it more serious than it used to be.

hrmmmm. can't hug the dog also if everything fails cause someone is jealous. i've got no idea how people compare parents with son. its just like the statement about who will you rescue if your wife and mom drop down to the sea? how can people be that stupid when they're given brains? i really wonder.

going out for heavy lunch. :)

good day, people.

._.

was really emo and lay at the porch with Cooper. my dad asked me why didn't i come in but staying outside for such a long time. * i told him that i was chatting with my son * :P glad Cooper was there and i drop at least 300 ml of tears today. lol. will have swollen eyes tomorrow and i forgot that i shouldn't cry since tomorrow is a really big day! :(

talking about today. i hope everything happened is not related with me but i think it is somehow related. 

you were once so close with us but why? whatever you had done tore my heart into pieces. 

thank you for showing this face to cheer me up. i love you, my boy. :) please forgive me for punishing you sometimes cause you shouldn't have eaten stones and that is not good for your health.

got to sleep. :)

goodnight, people. xoxo#

Mango Pomelo, 杨枝甘露

thought of making mango pomelo because i got to see lots of mangoes around when i went to bazaar Ramadhan and Tesco but then when i wanted to make it, i saw noting even though i went for mangoes hunting in the market! that pissed me off and so i drove all the way to Tesco at 8 in the morning after getting the fresh coconut milk in the market. 

thank Buddha i got all the sweet Chokanan mangoes from Tesco. thank Buddha the recipe was really good and everyone likes it. 

taken pictures! 

i'm going to make it again when i can get cheap mangoes. :) thats what came into my mind after tasting it. thank you, 米桶！

Ching was back for the weekend and everything was good until today. didn't know how did i hurt this sister of mine and she stopped talking to me. :(

heartburn is back to be and i'm still too energetic to go to bed. guess i need to go to greet goodnight to my boy and rest.

may you rest well too!

goodnight, xoxo#

.... heyo people! :) i'm here to note down about today again. boss called and dad was there to wake me up for my work and i hurt him accidentally, i think. was at work place and didn't enjoy at all and find myself lost half way. i was once thinking i can be the one who keeps my dad's business running but then after all then i wonder if i am able to do so? can i really make it since the father of mine always think that i'm not suitable for it. 

i'm stress. don't ask me why, i've got no idea. probably because my boss is my dad and i hate him treating me in those ways. i thought i'm more mature compared to last time but still i've never ending crying session this month and i really feel like going to see my grandpas in the heaven but then Allen said that we've to be happy even if we feel like dying. 

i don't really remember when was the last time did i smile like i've own everything. 

... anyhow, i walked Cooper twice today. still poo in the house and manja all the time. was once thinking to bathe him again but i was just too tired and so i took a short nap. felt better after all. 

i used to love my work very much and i lost my passion all in a sudden. i thought i can make it as long as i love my family but i've got no idea why. 

one important thing is, what can i do if i leave my dad's stall. 

last but not least, 

my baby boy! :)

goodnight, people. xoxo#

was busy today! baked nestum cookies and ate a lot for no special reasons and i'm full now. very full even before i had my dinner. okay, that was not cool and i'm too tired to step on my gym bike ... and .. i'll be regret tomorrow. so, nevermind, we need not worry about tomorrow, my uncle said and everything has its solutions..... people said. :)

hrmmmm. talk about today's update. why am i here even though i should have gone to bed. because i find myself forgot what i had done yesterday and i feel like noting down something for today. :) hrmmmmm. 

really didn't much but got to walk Cooper twice today. that naughty boy can't hold his poo again and so i bring him out whenever he barks cause he was once barking loud at us whenever he wants to poo. :) the smart boy barks whenever he feels like going out or want us to see him nowadays. always so so so manja and i wonder how can i survive without seeing him. :(

made a cup of dragon fruit smoothies for myself when i was home. best smoothies i ever made, so far. try it if you want and i hope it will not let you down. 

a big slice of dragon fruit + yogurt + honey + ice and blend it! 

best detox juice i've had so far, really. :) 

okay, done crapping and had to go to bed. :D 

hopefully, tomorrow is a good day. 

goodnight, people. xoxo#

:))

had a very busy week. cousins are back from Scotland and so we had fun baking in our uncle's house! thank you for your awesome oven, ah pek! :)

baked a cake for the youngest uncle of mine for his birthday. was once thinking the cake would be lousy but people said it was good even though i found it too sweet. oh, not my hard work cause i was the photographer. kakakakaka~!

baked cookies and made jelly too! :) lots of people helped us and we had fun, really. thank all the aunts who sponsored fruits and stuff. thank uncle for his oven, maid for cleaning stuffs and recipe. :) 

taken pictures. 

the classic cheesecake. 

the cookies

the jelly! 

went Kampar yesterday. it was fun even though the trip was really tiring.. =) atmosphere went different in these days. glad my friends are all back and we had fun chit chatting around. :)

got to go off cause i ate too much and so i had to cycle. :D 

goodnight, people. xoxo#