today was great until my dad told us that the captain resigned. a captain of a boat plays an important role and he resigned.

worst news ever and i've got no idea if i should really go for PIAM already.

told my dad not to worry about me and if he really feels like stopping the business, he can just go on and i'll go for other fields. insurance or anything, i believe that as long as i start my first step moving out from my comfort zone, i can make anything. can't be richer than my dad, maybe but then he doesn't need to worry about me that i always tell myself if i can't big money, spend less. if i want a big house, i have to put effort. staying at home will never make me rich, i know. because i don't buy lottery and so i can't hit it too, so money will not drop down from the sky!

thought instant noodles can help to boost up the mood and so i had one packet and started to step on my gym bike. end up being sick. not flu, not fever but feels like vomiting. that is killing me. really.

i've to work in the market for some special reason tomorrow.

maybe then i have to take paracetamol and rest. i actually have no right to complain if i am tired since i had been an useless lady since last Friday.

something is not right and i've got no idea what is that. being here to complain is not a right choice i made, i know but i hope someone is there to help my dad.

so helpless.

xo#

heya people! its been a while since i got up for my morning shift in the market and the mommy of mine shouted at downstairs to wake me up to get her some eggs saying she forgot to buy eggs for the dishes she is going to prepare. OMG.

so i thought of where can i go to buy large eggs and my yummy breakfast. yea, typical fatty who thinks of drumsticks once she left her bed. hehehehehehe. 

bought some kind of chicken rice which taste really good and i'm so going to get it again next time. not expensive too as in the portion is big and i'm really full after my big breakfast. breakfast was cool, everything sounds so right and i'm very excited for every second since i got up from my bed. isn't it a good sign for the day? :D 

anyway, not the main topic. hahahahahahaa. main topic is i'm not coming to update my blog anytime soon after this because i'm going to lend my sister my laptop and i don't really like to update it with my phone. its okay typing with whatsapp and anything but blog because i've to type a really long essay and i find myself lazy correcting all the auto correct function by the iphone. hehehehee. 

why do i lend it to my sister even though it is really important to me? because i can give it to brother last time, why not my sister? :D i hope she can bring my cherry tomato back in a piece and it functions still. :D

i believe in my sister. i chose to believe in my sister. :)

did i tell you that i went all the way to Penang for Korean BBQ on Friday? hehehehee. dad told me to take leave that he wanted to bring me to Penang saying he needed to be in Penang and i forgot why. afterall then he said, " i shall leave you to your sister and three of you are going to have your Korean BBQ. " just because none of them like it and so all his kids have to accompany me for the meal. i was so high even though i was really tired. everyone was there for my cravings. i was really happy and it showed how lucky was i to be part of the family. :) 

taken pictures.

the blissful moment

the other fatty was busy taking picture

thank you for being with me all the time, my darling sister! 

hehehehehee. phone died when we were in Daorae and we took pictures with her phone. :D yea, right, my brother said that nobody can see his eldest sister's eyes when she smiles. hahahahahahaha. my eyes are really small in this picture but my sister is pretty, so its okay! :D 

okay, leaving. 

work time. 

may you have a good day like i do. 

xo#

went jogging with the mommy of mine this morning. didn't know how did she know that i actually woke up but acted like i was sleeping thinking to skip jogging. guess she is my mom that she doesn't need to go to check DNA or so else how she knew. i really wonder. LOL 

okay, she was screaming for her fatty downstairs saying, " fatty, exercise!" for a couple of times and then i came down and went jogging with her. hehehehe. yea, i need to reduce weight to cut off the oily parts of my body. hehehehehe. 

walked for around an hour and found that i actually stay at a nice place with a good recreational park where we can exercise. so fell in love with it and so going to jog again when i needn't go to work, if and only if i lose a few kgs in the coming few months. hehehehe

taken pictures. 

needn't go Korea to see the park of "winter sonata". we have it too what just that we have to ignore the rubbish they threw aside. other than that everything was okay. :D 

got a message from my friend who i knew from national service knowing that they are going to have a gathering in Penang. was thinking if i am going because i'm not close with them and i can't talk with people who are not close with me. that will be an awkward moment but she invited me. i'll have to be in deep thought, really. its been quite a long time since i saw all of them. 7 years, i think. because even my baby is 7 years old and i got it at the day i got home from the national service. :D

slept like there is no tomorrow yesterday. felt dizzy still even after late lunch last night because i was really tired and so i couldn't keep my eyes open. something was not right and i've got no idea what was that.

getting really excited today. guess what did i do? LOL. i bought two bottles of milk from Tesco and came home without the free gift so i drove all the way back to Tesco to claim for free gift and that lady said that it is out of stock. i went crazy for two seconds. hahahahaha. unlucky, maybe but then all i wasted was petrol so i had to be careful next time to check if i have everything with me only i can leave hypermarket next time.

my father taught me to be like that. think of your benefits and loss in every decision you make. think of the pro and cons and then you'll know what to do.

i told one of my friend to stop messaging me for a period of time because i think there is no point wasting time to keep us connect because if we keep it connecting then something might just happen. i don't want anyone of us to get hurt. i might be funny planning everything but i'm okay with it, as long as he doesn't regret in the future, being my friend or not doesn't really matter. i lose a friend but he gets what he wants. that is way more important and i cannot be selfish. :D

i felt happy on the decision i made. seriously. i will never regret on it. i told myself.

ya right. procrastinating STILL. i actually have to go on my gym bike to cycle that i ate dinner in bigger portion but then i'm lazy. VERY lazy. somebody please slap me so that i can stay awake for a couple hours or more. hehehehehehe.

i'm very happy today. i find myself happy looking things in different ways. watch everything with your eyes carefully, clearly, then you will find out everything has its value. i am going to be the optimistic Yee Chui again, because i find myself smile very often since i chose to look things in different ways.

i will keep it up. because i only live once.

hehehehehehe.

exercise. yoga. bathe. sleep.

may you smile like i do. if not then accept it as it is because everything happens for a reason. :)

goodnight, pals.

xo#

hello, people!

i never forget to greet whenever i start typing my blog everytime i come to update it! hehehe.

believe me or not, i feel like driving to Penang and have lunch with my siblings and come home at night. told my mom about my plan and got rejected. she asked if i get crazy. LOL yea, typical mom, probably because she doubts if i can come home tonight in a piece. LOL.

i was once driving very fast when i was fetching my dad and he told me that my life is much valuable compared to anyone else just that i didn't know about it. that is why my mom never stop telling me to drive safe whenever i feel like paying my siblings a visit. hehehe.

but still, i miss Korean barbecue very much. can't i just go there for lunch and i promise i will be safe. lol. me too doubt that if i can drive home tonight because i am typing my blog with half closing eyes? but then i can sleep over at their house and come back tomorrow, isn't it? i have plan B so why worry? :P

emotional? yes, maybe. do you know how do i find out that i'm not happy? all i do is think of fried drumstick. LOL i don't eat when i get moody, sometimes. hahahaha. i double the portion of the meals i can eat too sometimes when i'm really moody. i'm a lady who changes my mind often. LOL

i'm here to note down how did i order food from my dad yesterday actually.

dad called when he was on his way back home to ask if i needed dinner. yea, its a kind of need because i skipped my lunch for my kimchi. :P i told him to go here and there to buy a packet of nasi kandar for me. that funny father of mine who likes to complain about the size of mine actually asked how many pieces of drumsticks did i want. that was so sweet but then i knew i would go to bed right after dinner and so i asked for one piece only. the stall was closed and so he went to another place for my rice. i told him that i might just skipped my meal since it was raining and he didn't need to go that far for a packet of rice and he insisted. i felt bad for ordering my dad. if my mom was at home, i might get scolded. oh just because my mom went out with her friends then i didn't prepare dinner for my dad. :P yea, daughter. LOL

thought of something when i was about to drink my coffee at my work place. not remember when was the last time did i drink coffee with blank tummy. LOL. i know i will get into trouble if i ever do that again. is that one of the symptoms of getting older too? hrmmmm.

okay. i got to stop dreaming about Korean barbecued and start working. too many things to settle at once and so i have to move or else i can't come home on time for lunch date with my parents.

be thankful. that is all i need to do for now.

thank you for dropping by to read my silly thought all these while. i will keep it up. LOL just because i only live once. i can't tell everyone what i think all the time. hehehehe.

good day people. xo#

heya! i'm here after cleaning the kitchen. yea, i made Kimchi. 

made it all by myself today because my parents are all busy for their activities and so i had to blend my chili paste with my mommy's super blender by myself. not tough and it only took 2 minutes to finish up the whole process. 

thought back the first time i made kimchi at home and i was still new in learning cooking which was three years back and my dad told me that i actually can try to make some other dishes since i can make kimchi. i told my dad we don't need skills to make kimchi, only ingredients and mix up everything. that is not hard at all and he laughed. 

yes, we need passion and patient. we don't get it done easily because my mom tried once and she failed to make it. i never know that i can make something better than my mom, to be honest. that simply shows that we have to start our first step in learning anything and nothing is impossible to achieve, as long as we put effort, as long as we try, we can make it. not stopping God to take away our lives or dating a married man, of course. anything other than that is possible to achieve as long as we try, i think. though it might not be easy but possible. :) 

me too don't believe that i actually can bake cake now! i used to tell my cousin that cakes sold in cake shop is tasty and cheaper, why waste time in the kitchen and ended up washing everything by our own and that is a waste of time! :P

i'm not sure about what am i typing about. hahahahaha. too tired, too sleepy. 

last but not least, 

my kimchi! 

i'll be back when i'm not that emo later. :)

bed time, i think. too tired. better rest now than fishing at market tomorrow. hehehehe. ya right i did that this morning. :P 

good day, pals. xo#

hehehehe. i'm here before i step on my gym bike because i'm kind of regret for eating too much. :P went to Star Parade for three purple pitaya for my detox juice and lunch box for my dad. saw their drumsticks "waved" at me and so i brought it home. lol. 

yea, i can't stop eating fried chicken especially fried drumstick. :) 

came home and served myself lunch with kimchi. found out that i almost finish eating the kimchi i made at the other day. ya, right. i've reasons to make kimchi again. i'm so going to make kimchi tomorrow. omg. excited.   its been a while since i make kimchi paste. :) i love kimchi that i just have to be busy for a day or so and then i can enjoy having it for months. i like to prepare food in this way that whenever i wrap wantons, i make more and i can add in wantons whenever i cook my instant noodles. hehehehe. lazy, i know. hehehe. 

i'm not dumb, maybe. that i know where my problems are just that i'm being too lazy to leave my comfort zone and start everything all over again. i deserved to be poor and i have to regret when i see people driving expensive cars and living in big houses in the future because i'm lazy. hrmmmm. :P

lunch. 

have to go now or i'll sleep instead of cycling on my bike. i know my style. hahahaha. too fat and my brother is going to complain about me when he sees me next month, i think. no, i hate people complaining about me and i think i need to be smaller in size so that i can get to know a boyfriend soon? hahaha. who likes fatty, right? :D

don't worry. i'll be alright.

xo#

hello people! I'm here again, before my shower and bed time. hehehehehee. 

went to toilet for N times today wondering if i made wrong smoothie. Oh well, i don't call it smoothie but detox juice. i seldom eat fruits. i only blend fruits for digestion when i find myself not feeling good. :P vitamin intake, :P 

i do that just because i think smoothie taste better. :P i don't drink the same drink all the time, i only buy discounted fruits sold in Tesco and i paid 10 bucks for two boxes of Strawberries this time. was wondering if i can make it with yogurt so i bought both yogurt and milk. 

made smoothie with yogurt yesterday and ended up went to toilet for many times and had stomache pain for many hours. suffered when i was working in the wet market today. :P 

before blended.  

taste good. love it. so going to make it once again to prove that nothing goes wrong with my smoothie! came home for toilet break and rushed back to office and then the father of mine brought my milkshake to the office for me. i was so happy and i find it taste better with milk because we don't have to add in honey for milkshake and its not sour at all. fattening i know because i added fresh milk but then it is tasy! so, i will make it again still since i've many Strawberries left in the fridge. diet tomorrow, maybe? :P i hope that i don't have to run to toilet often tomorrow. hehehehehehehe. 

my milkshake! 

sister was back at home and we had fun. don't remember about details but i was really happy. dated my friend too yesterday. had best fried chicken in town and slept after that. :P too tired that i went to work in the wet market and i had no idea why i slept but still very tired after that.

getting real old in these days that i sleep early, like ten at night and feel really tired at the next day. probably because i cut off the caffeine intake of mine but still i think i feel sleepy all the time and i really wonder why. :P

was streaming Korean series again when i was cycling on my gym bike moments ago. found that i am a bad girl that stick to someone who has a girlfriend. i hate myself for being like that. i should think for the lady because i too don't like my man keeps on messaging someone i think though i will never be a controller who controls him all the time? i'm not sure about that but i think i should really avoid that so that people don't misunderstand on me.

i think i have to change. i really have to. i will keep it up. i hope i can.

small matter anyway. bigger matter was accident happened when the boats went fishing few days back that both of dad's boat and another boat crashed. very serious it seemed to be but then i don't think my dad wants me to busy body around so good luck, papa. :)

got to go. hopefully everything turns back to normal when i get up from my bed later. :P

night, people. xo#

hello. I'm here for a short update before i get back to my office. feeling sick that heartburn attacked again. wondering how does it feel like? hehehehehe. not something cool to try out anyway so please take care of yourself to avoid that happens on you! 

went to work early in the morning today. had heartburn attacked even before i had my breakfast which was roti canai and iced coffee! thought back what i did last night and i assumed that something is not right with my current lifestyle or she will not pay me for a visit. 

not sure what actually happened. feeling sick and having the symptoms of getting pregnant that i feel like vomiting all the time. that nearly kills me and i  really hate that. hrmmmm.

its time to go for the main topic. its actually about my boy. he was sick yesterday that something was not right with his legs, he barked often and showed that emo face, not moving though i hugged him yesterday but then the normal boy came back to me today that he quickly stood up when he saw me just now and kept on smiling. :) my hyperactive boy never stop moving whenever i hugged him and that is why i felt awkward when he didn't move around yesterday. 

i love my boy very much even though he is smelly sometimes. 

my baby boy keeps quiet when he sees my tears. i thank Buddha for bringing him to me ( Elvis and Stephanie too )

i love my boy. i'm so going to bake a cake for him on his birthday! cake for pets. :)

leaving then. hopefully i can suffer less today because i don't feel like going to clinic to consult my uncle doctor yet. :P

so, good day, people!

xo#

heyo people! I'm back from Singapore.

people might just ask how was the trip, it was tiring to be honest but then after all then i think everything was good. food is okay too even though many people told me that they taste weird but it actually isn't because its Singaporean style so it is like that.

walked to Clementi market and had Curry Laksa. saw two slices of special thing and i thought they were ham but they were actually fish cakes, taste special, that is all i can say. ordered pork porridge and it came out with a bowl of porridge with a raw egg. isn't it cool when the egg is raw and you mix up everything with the hot porridge. yea, its special and i'm going to try it at my home later when i cook porridge next time. :D

explored lots of new stuffs like Singapore is a hectic country, you save a lot if you cook at home as in fresh ingredients are cheap. ya right, i went to NTUC to see before i left to airport else i would never know about that. :D

Singaporean and kind, not like how people said that they hate Malaysian. everything was good, just good and its not far if you take flight like me. took Jetstar and i think it is really good for the timing that they don't simply postpone the flight for two hours and so and its not expensive. i actually paid 190 for two ways flight to Singapore from Penang. :)

went to Universal studios with my only sister. we actually fought because i didn't feel like going for roller coaster and then we went for "the revenge of mummy's" after lunch taken with the cousin brother of mine. high recommended by him and we nearly vomited our lunch treated by him after the game! lol. ya right, lousy i know but stress relieved after that. LOL.

yes, everything was good. i was lucky enough that my sister was with me. we bought many iphone cases for our iphones and the skinny sister of mine bought blouses and dresses. yes, guess she enjoyed really much in Singapore.

yea, that is all about trip to Singapore. :)

I wasn't happy for the whole day to be honest. not really sure why do i get heartburn often nowadays. gone really emotional and taken short nap. went to office after my late lunch.

being really emotional still even after i came home from work and so i cycled on my gym bike and sweat it out. i felt so much better after that. was once thinking to bake but then i'm fat that i can't eat cake often so do my parents so i went on my gym bike and burn my calories. :D

its actually not a bad idea and i tried some yoga practice after that. getting really tired and feel like going mandi and sleep. :) will be back for update with picture taken in Singapore! :)

i hope i can sleep well tonight. i hope everything turns back to normal by time when i get up from my bed.

goodnight, people! xo#

heyo! i'm back. :D

back to normal me and find out that today is actually a good day!

find out that new life begins and not being stress anymore, probably because i slept for eight hours plus last night and going for holiday soon.

half way sleeping and thinking if i can bring my baby to Singapore with me still. cabin luggage looks bulky so does him. will leave it tomorrow and if i really can't make it then i'll hug my backpack to sleep. :D

so,
SGD checked
Passport checked
Clothes checked
Pants checked
Camera checked
Holiday mood checked!

hehehehehe. hopefully i can sleep tight tonight. :D

just in case you're worrying, i'm alright already! so fast, why? because i've the world best sister with me. yes, i cried but then i felt better after that. :) no word can describe how happy am i now. yea, typical lady! :D

and ... happy birthday Win Shen. will cook you a table of dishes when i see you in the coming September. may you be happy, healthy and wealthy, always! be good, boy! hope to see you soon.

so, goodnight people! hopefully you had a good day like i did, if not then may you have good days after today! :D

xo#

Black sesame chiffon cake!

yoooo, people! i'm here just a few days before i depart to Singapore. don't ask me why, probably because my brain keeps telling me to come for a update before i go? :P 

felt like baking black sesame chiffon cake last weekend and so i baked it. its funny that i always think that i  need milk for the cake but then it should be coconut milk. :P went all the way to Tesco for fresh milk and then only i found out that i actually needed coconut milk and so i substituted it again. :P yea, taste alright with milk. 

thank you for sharing the recipe Please give it a try if you like black sesame too! :)

my cake. 

parents were away from home yesterday. i was streaming Korean series until i forgot to call my parents to ask about their trip to Penang. hehehehehehehe. yea, too crazy. i felt sorry to my mom when she called home to look for her fatty and wondered why didn't she call her parents yesterday. 

date myself at Mac Donald's moments ago. had spicy chicken Mcdeluxe and satisfied with what i had. yea, full. i was having heartburn when i was about to go for lunch but then i think i need to eat to make me feel that i'm breathing. that is not a good habit i know but then i think i need to do something to make me feel better.

i'm here to type stories before i go.

there was a time i got addicted to ICQ and then i knew a guy being really close with him for a long time. there was a time i found i actually addicted to the person i talk to but the messenger, then i found he is actually not that good and people hope that i can let him go but then i just can't make it since i see hope every time i talk to him until yesterday. he is in a relationship, surprisingly i'm not sad but then i think i need a few days to become normal. its been eight years or so, i don't remember. he was once very important, just like how Buddha loves me that i just think of getting rid of people who don't treat me equally good like how i treat them and then he changed his status. its time, i told myself. its time to let it go.

til now then i tell myself, yes i can make it. when i want something, nobody can stop me, nobody can make me accept something when i don't want it too.

i will be better. :)

i've to go.

good day, people!

don't worry, Ching.

xo#

a week to holiday!

can't wait to go to Singapore next Friday though i haven't bake my almond for chocolate almond. thinking to make my cousins some snacks. hehehehe. my aunties love my chocolate almond the best and so i think my cousin might like it too!

talk about Singapore. what do i expect that i can get in Singapore? nothing much just that i can relax my mind and not answering phone calls for a couple days then i will be alright.

why stress? because i can't sleep well nowadays and then my brain stuck when i'm asked to be as multi-tasking clerk. i find myself can't hear well too and so i have to repeat what people talk to re-confirm about the pricing sometimes. i also heard people calling me all the time, either my dad or mom and then they said they didn't even mention my name. critical, maybe. no, not dying yet, just that i'm tired of this and so i need to rest a while to keep me go further.

yea, i need to rest. a handburger and a full rack of pork ribs will make me feel better i think. :D

dear tze huei, please drop me an email if you feel like meeting me up, though my schedule might be very pack but still, maybe then we can have meal together? just because i don't know where can i go to look for you. hopefully, i'll get your mail sometimes later. :)

time to go off. night, people!

will be back after my short trip. xo#