i'm going to note down about the special night. :D yea, tonight is a special night that i'm going to share a room with my parents.
lonely night that parents went somewhere for their date but me. feeling tired also eyes are half way closing that i lied on the cushion watching series for the whole evening. that made me feel like making sushi. :D
not feeling hungry after lunch nowadays. probably because i eat chicken and meat everyday to keep me full and rest early after that. did i lose weight? no of course because i keep on telling myself that i'll only step on my gym bike later and never start doing that. why? i don't know?
found something today. when i get to relax then i get really lazy and less efficient in doing work. it happens to me all the time especially when i get to stick to my cushion in the hall after work and also i can hardly get back to sleep whenever someone wakes me up. i feel old when i can't sleep back even though i'm really tired.
i miss those days when i can sleep really tight even without sleep pillow.
papa told me that he is going to close his stall and i'm going to work in other fields. i really wonder when can i start looking for my life. am i too late to be in university? can i go for culinary arts? can i be a baker and sell homemade cakes and cookies or even kimchi? anybody knows what do i like? can i spend all my money going to the states of America and start everything all over again?
i really wonder.
i'm lost, again.
xo#
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